“The reason we struggle with insecurity is because we compare our behind-the-scenes with everyone else’s highlight reel.” – Steve Furtick
My behind-the-scenes are messy. Ridiculously messy. And I don’t mean my office or something – though with multiple cork boards, bookcases, baskets, and a white board that is occasionally covered in so many post-it notes, it looks like it’s growing paper fur, that’s its own breed of interesting.
I mean my behind-the-scenes of life.
I’ve wanted to be a writer since I was a kid. That much I’ve known about myself for years. But it took me a long time to get to the point of even having one, single novel out in the world. I buried what I wanted to do and ran from one unrelated-to-writing job to another unrelated-to-writing job, all because of some silly belief that ‘responsible’ people held ‘responsible’ jobs until some magical time when they were finally given permission to do what they wanted in life. Meanwhile, I had days when I wrote, days when I stared at the wall, and days when it felt like there was a better chance of the world exploding in a ball of fire than there was of me finishing a book.
And some days, I still feel like that.
My behind-the-scenes are messy.
But I’m going to hazard a guess that, on some level, maybe yours are too. Read more…